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astrolook · 5 months ago

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Sun in the houses:

Let's see what happens how sun behaves in all these houses, both positive and negative. Mind you that every planet in any house or sign can exhibit both positive and negative traits and can manifest in a person.

Sun in 1st House: I’m not saying I’m the center of the universe, but... I kinda am. 🌞🌍

You just get leadership. You don’t have to try; it’s in your blood. If afflicted, your leadership style might feel more like "dictatorship." You’re so sure of yourself that others don’t get a chance to voice their opinions.

Your positivity and belief in yourself make others think, “If they can do it, I can too!”. If Sun is afflicted, it can come off as "I'm better than you" rather than "I believe in myself."

You’re the life of the party! Your energy lifts the room and makes everyone feel involved. If afflicted, you might crave attention to the point where you overshadow others.

You set big goals, and you achieve them. There’s no stopping you once your mind is made up. If afflicted, friends and colleagues can feel like you’re so busy chasing success that you forget to check in on them.

Your dad probably instilled in you a sense of pride and self-worth that shaped who you are. If afflicted, your dad could be too demanding or proud of you, it can create some serious pressure. You might feel like you’re living for his approval rather than your own dreams, and that can lead to overcompensating or burning out.

Sun in the 2nd House: Money talks, but my self-worth yells! 💸🌟

You have a strong sense of self-worth, often tied to personal achievements. You know your value. If afflicted, You might tie your entire identity to material success, feeling inadequate or worthless without financial stability or possessions.

You are ambitious, striving to build financial security. Hard work often pays off. If afflicted, your financial instability may lead to insecurity or even an unhealthy obsession with money. You may be overly materialistic.

You’re usually careful with your resources but if afflicted, you could be prone to overspending or hoarding, unable to find a balanced approach to finances.

A father figure can be a source of inspiration and a role model in financial matters and work ethics. If afflicted, it could bring inheritance issues or you may feel that you never live up to his expectations.

Can exhibit workaholic tendencies, sacrificing personal happiness or family life for financial gain or status.

You have the potential to rise above financial challenges, but if afflicted, you could experience deep feelings of insecurity or even shame when you don't meet your own or others’ material expectations, possibly leading to cycles of self-doubt.

You might view love through the lens of material gestures or gifts, making it difficult to connect emotionally or romantically.

Sun in the 3rd House: Your ideas are shining bright, but good luck getting people to stop talking long enough to hear them!

You’re a natural communicator, your words carry weight. If afflicted, you might dominate conversations or struggle with listening, sometimes coming off as self-centered or dismissive of others' perspectives.

Close, possibly authoritative, relationship with siblings; they could be supportive, or you may take on a leadership role in your family. If afflicted, Conflicts with siblings or feeling misunderstood could arise, leading to tension and rivalry, sometimes even to the point of no contact.

Quick-witted and sharp but also can struggle with overthinking, becoming mentally scattered or overwhelmed by too many ideas at once.

You could excel as a teacher or mentor. If afflicted, a tendency to lecture or impose your ideas on others.

Enjoys frequent short trips. On the flip side, Travel may be more about running away from stress or distractions rather than meaningful exploration, leaving you feeling unsettled.

You naturally build connections with people in your immediate environment, making you very social and approachable. If afflicted, can come off as superficial or too eager to network.

You have a great sense of humor and can use wit to win people over in conversations. If afflicted, might use humor as a defense mechanism or to hide insecurities, sometimes crossing boundaries or coming across as insensitive.

Sun in the 4th House: Home is where your heart—and your ego—are, and good luck moving past your childhood room!

You deeply value your home and family, often finding identity in your roots and personal space. Sometimes, it can lead to clinging to the past or feeling stuck in old patterns.

Your self-esteem may become too tied to your home life, making you feel insecure or restless if things at home are unstable.

You may have a strong, nurturing relationship with your mother or a motherly figure, who plays a central role in your life. If afflicted, A dominant or overbearing mother could lead to conflicts or struggles with your own sense of self.

You have a deep appreciation for your heritage and traditions. If afflicted, You may be too focused on the past, unable to move forward or let go of old family patterns or unresolved issues.

You may find comfort and strength in your private life, but sometimes a strong need for privacy might lead to isolation or difficulty expressing yourself outside of your home or family setting.

Sun in the 5th House: You’re not just good at playing games—you’re good at being the star of them!

You have a strong need to express yourself creatively, often excelling in arts, hobbies, or self-expression. If afflicted, Can become too focused on being admired for your creativity, leading to vanity or insecurity when not recognized.

Life is a playground for you; you seek joy, excitement, and adventure in everything you do, but if afflicted, may seek too much pleasure, becoming careless or irresponsible, neglecting other important aspects of life.

You approach romance with confidence and passion but sometimes you might crave validation through romantic relationships, leading to drama or superficial connections.

If you become a parent, you’re likely to take pride in raising children and may have a natural ability to nurture and inspire them. If afflicted, can become overly focused on impressing your children or living through them, putting too much pressure on them or on yourself.

You are willing to take risks for excitement but on the flip side, A penchant for risk-taking could lead to reckless behavior or impulsive decisions, sometimes causing unnecessary harm to yourself or others and regrets.

Sun in the 6th House: You’re the go-to person for work, health, and making sure everything runs smoothly—unless you’re burnt out, of course!

You take pride in your work and have a strong sense of responsibility. You’re highly dedicated and reliable. If afflicted, it could be overburdening yourself with tasks and potentially leading to burnout.

You find fulfillment in helping others and often take on service-oriented roles where you can make a difference. Sometimes, you might feel taken for granted or unappreciated, especially if you put others' needs before your own, leading to frustration.

You are often very conscious of maintaining good health but sometimes you could become obsessed with health routines, leading to anxiety about perfection or overemphasis on minor health concerns.

You feel fulfilled by supporting or mentoring others, often excelling in roles that require service or care. You might struggle with self-worth if your efforts aren't appreciated or recognized, leading to resentment.

You possess strong mental and physical discipline and you may become overly critical of yourself or others if things don’t meet your high standards.

You’re excellent at identifying and solving problems but over-thinking or obsessing over problems can lead to anxiety or difficulty seeing the bigger picture, getting stuck in the minutiae.

Sun in the 7th House: You love being in the spotlight of relationships—just make sure you're not shining too brightly for your partner!

You thrive in close relationships and find your identity through your connections with others. If afflicted, you may become overly dependent on a partner for validation, losing sight of your individuality or putting too much pressure on the relationship.

You may take pride in your role as a partner or spouse and often invest deeply in committed relationships. If afflicted, You could place too much importance on marriage or partnerships, potentially attracting bad partners that are either possessive or just use you.

Your relationship with your father can have a significant impact on your views of partnerships. If your father was distant or authoritative, you may unconsciously seek partners who resemble him, leading to issues with power dynamics or unfulfilled needs.

You excel in negotiating and finding common ground in relationships but you may avoid confrontation or sacrifice your own needs to keep the peace, leading to resentment or unresolved issues.

Sun in the 8th House: You don’t just like to dive deep, you want to see what’s under the surface—and no, we’re not talking about the fridge!

You experience emotions deeply, with a strong ability to connect to others on an intimate level. beware, intense emotions can lead to emotional highs and lows, making it difficult to find balance or feel stable in your personal life.

You are fascinated by the unknown, with a natural curiosity about life’s deeper meanings, psychology, and even the occult. You may become obsessed with uncovering secrets, and sometimes, this can lead to unhealthy fixation or paranoia about what’s hidden.

You’re often able to emerge stronger from crises or difficult experiences but also you may become addicted to chaos or dramatic transformations, seeking out crises for the sense of power or transformation they bring.

You have an innate understanding of life's cyclical nature, and you often feel comfortable with the idea of death, allowing you to live more fully. This connection can turn into a preoccupation with mortality, possibly manifesting as anxiety or unhealthy fears surrounding death or loss.

If afflicted, a troubled relationship with your father, possibly marked by power struggles or emotional distance, could lead to unresolved issues or feelings of inadequacy that carry over into your relationships.

Sun in the 9th House: You're on a never-ending quest for truth, knowledge, and adventure—basically, a cosmic tourist with a PhD!

You are drawn to big ideas, philosophy, spirituality, and have a strong sense of purpose, often inspired by a higher calling or ideal. If the ideal is unattainable or unrealistic, you might feel disillusioned or disconnected from reality, leading to frustration or unrealistic expectations.

Travel, especially abroad, opens your mind and helps you grow as a person. If afflicted, leads to a feeling of being ungrounded or dissatisfied if you're unable to travel or explore as much as you’d like.

You might even study or work abroad. Your family could have mixed races.

You enjoy being a guide, especially when it comes to life’s big questions. If afflicted, can exhibit a tendency to be overly preachy or self-righteous could alienate others.

Sun in the 10th House: The spotlight is yours! You were born to be on stage—just don’t forget to thank your fans (or, you know, your boss)!

You’re highly motivated to achieve your professional goals and to be recognized for your efforts. If afflicted, you may become overly focused on career achievement, neglecting personal life or burning out from putting all your energy into work.

You care deeply about your reputation and public image, working hard to project a successful, competent, and reliable image. If afflicted, an excessive focus on public perception might lead to superficiality, a tendency to prioritize appearances over substance, or anxiety about how others view you.

Your career goals often play a significant role in shaping your sense of self. Achieving professional milestones boosts your confidence and sense of purpose. If your career is the only way you define yourself, failure or setbacks in your work life may cause a loss of self-worth or personal identity.

Your work is a vehicle for self-expression. You want your career to reflect your true talents and individuality. If your work doesn't align with your authentic self, you may feel you're not being true to who you are.

Your father may serve as a strong role model for career success, influencing your own professional aspirations and ambitions. If your relationship with your father was strained or critical, you may feel like you’re constantly trying to meet his expectations or prove yourself, which could cause you to chase success for the wrong reasons.

Sun in the 11th House: You’re the lonely butterfly with a mission— dreaming of changing the world one connection at a time!

You're that introvert in the extroverted setting. You could be surrounded by people all the time and still feel lonely. You prefer a one-to-one connection than a group setting.

You may become disillusioned or frustrated with the slow pace of change or people who don't share your level of commitment to causes, which could make you feel isolated or unsupported.

You likely to adopt kids or maybe you are the adopted kid. There is a possibility of having a step-father or divorced parent.

You're not one to conform easily and prefer to stay true to your unique self, even in social settings. Definitely, not a sheep.

You like to talk with strangers online and loves to spend time online. If afflicted, chronically online.

Sun in the 12th House: The spotlight is on you, but you’re hiding in the shadows—awkwardly shining in silence and doing some serious soul-searching!

You have a deep connection to your subconscious mind, offering insight into hidden aspects of yourself. This connection can bring about significant personal growth and spiritual awakening.

Could have had a relationship or a fling with a professor or teacher of some sort. Or was it just a crush?

You could shine by moving to other countries for studies or even work. You might feel like you don't belong here.

You could be working in a hospital, programmer, researcher, or just any "behind-the-scenes" jobs.

Have a tendency to avoid the spotlight. You might won't even show your face on social media.

Your father could be distant or could be that he is not there for you.

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astrocafecoffee · 5 months ago

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Venus observation 🙂

Venus in Aries is drawn to partners who aren't afraid to stand up to them or push their buttons. They don’t want someone who just agrees with everything they say. They crave that playful friction, someone who can test their limits and push them to grow. Someone who just tells them "yes" all the time will quickly lose their interest.

You might not expect it from their calm, laid-back exterior, but Venus in Taurus can get pretty possessive and jealous. Because they value security and loyalty, any threat to their relationship, real or perceived, can trigger a strong reaction. If they feel like someone is encroaching on their partner’s attention or affection, they might become a bit territorial. They might not say anything outwardly, but you'll definitely sense it.

If you can make Venus in Gemini individual laugh, you’re in! Venus in Gemini loves someone who has a quick wit and a sense of humor. They can be very attracted to people who can joke around, tell funny stories, or keep the conversation flowing with clever remarks. It’s not about traditional romantic gestures, it’s about sharing a mental connection that’s also fun and light-hearted.

Venus in Cancer often gravitates toward people who have emotional needs they can care for. If their partner is vulnerable, has some sort of emotional wound, or even needs a “shoulder to cry on,” Venus in Cancer might find themselves deeply drawn to them. They can’t help but want to nurture and protect those they love, and sometimes this leads them to take on a caretaking role that can sometimes be emotionally draining. They thrive on giving, but it’s important for them to find someone who also knows how to take care of them in return.

Venus in Leo is often stereotyped as someone who’s just interested in the thrill of the chase or loves attention from multiple sources, but once they commit, they are incredibly loyal and devoted. If they’ve decided you’re their person, they’ll have your back no matter what. They’re not interested in playing the field once they feel secure in the relationship,they’re looking for a partner who can offer the same level of passion and dedication they give.

Venus in Virgo doesn’t do unnecessary drama, fluff, or superficial romance. They’re looking for something real and grounded. Empty flattery, unrealistic ideals, or dramatic outbursts can turn them off quickly. They prefer sincerity and practicality in love,this could mean straightforward communication and avoiding overblown emotional expressions. They just want the truth, no matter how it comes.

If there’s any tension or conflict in their personal relationships, Venus in Libra is likely to step in and mediate. They hate disharmony and will do whatever it takes to restore peace and equilibrium. This can mean smoothing over arguments between friends or helping couples navigate rough patches. They’re natural peacemakers and don’t like to see anyone involved in conflict. But sometimes, this can mean they suppress their own feelings just to keep things peaceful.

Venus in Scorpio isn’t satisfied with a shallow or stagnant relationship. They want to be part of a transformative process where both partners evolve together. They are attracted to people who are willing to dive into the depths of themselves, face their fears, and grow. They often have a strong influence on their partner's emotional development and can help them uncover their true selves. This transformation can feel like a “rebirth” for both people involved.

Venus in Sagittarius is a dreamer when it comes to romance. They can often get swept away by the idea of love itself, rather than being overly focused on the practical realities. They’re optimistic about love and tend to idealize it in their minds. This can lead them to fall in love with the concept of a person or a relationship before they’ve fully gotten to know them. While they have a genuine love for exploring different types of love, they may sometimes find themselves disappointed if the reality doesn’t match their idealized vision.

For Venus in Capricorn, actions speak louder than words. They may not shower their partner with compliments or romantic declarations, but they’ll show their love through practical means. They may take care of everyday tasks, like helping with chores, running errands, or ensuring financial security for both people. They also appreciate these same actions from their partner,they want someone who is dependable, responsible, and willing to contribute to the relationship in a practical way.

People with Venus in Aquarius are generally very open-minded and accepting of others, and they want the same in return. They are non-judgmental and don’t like to impose conventional expectations on their partners. They believe in the importance of allowing each person to be their true, authentic self without restriction. In relationships, they tend to be tolerant and accepting of differences and expect their partner to respect their need for personal growth and individuality.

Romance is incredibly important to Venus in Pisces, and they are often natural romantics. They may be prone to grand, sweeping gestures of love or to envisioning a love story that’s straight out of a fairytale. Whether it's candlelit dinners, heartfelt poetry, or spontaneous acts of kindness, Venus in Pisces wants to create beautiful, memorable moments with their partner. They also enjoy being pampered with romantic gestures that make them feel special and cherished.

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richarlotte · 7 months ago

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High Maintenance, High Return.

I am someone who deeply believes in being the best. I was raised to believe that God is beautiful and loves beauty, and so there is a part of me that strives for beauty in everything I do. I am incredibly high maintenance; I take care of my mind, body, and soul; I strive to treat people beautifully, and I’m incredibly particular about who I allow into my life. For me, part of being high maintenance is protecting my energy and only allowing quality into my life. When it comes to my romantic relationships, I won’t date any man who is insecure about the way I choose to present myself to the world and go about my life. If you are a high maintenance woman in any way, shape, or form, you need to be with someone who understands that. I invest in myself, experience a high return in investments, and I think that coming to the realization that my life was best lived with an understanding that it’s perfectly normal to be high maintenance changed the way I view myself, how I spend my money, and how I invest my time. This is a direct result of how I was raised and it took me a long time to realize that caring for myself isn’t shameful; I should be my first priority.

Elevate & Influence!

This is something I learned from tagging along to a newly made friend’s JL meetings in NYC. You should be focused on elevating yourself and influencing others to do better. Does this mean that you have to actively take people under your wing and mentor them? No, what I mean is that people should look up to you and be influenced to do better. For example, one of my good friends on campus is incredibly involved in day-to-day life; she’s always doing something out of the ordinary and encouraging us to come along with her. She’s influenced me to do more, explore more, and try the things that I’m uncomfortable doing. She’s one of those people who will never say no when you ask her if she wants to try something foreign, and knowing her has helped me become more adventurous and open-minded than I could ever imagine. Elevating yourself is always going to be positive; you might not think it possible, but as you elevate yourself, surround yourself with uplifting and inspiring people, and influence others to do the same, your life will slowly improve.

Richarlotte x

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kleopatra45 · 11 months ago

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Mercury in the House [Solar Return]

Mercury in the 1st House

When Mercury is in the 1st house of your Solar Return chart, communication and intellectual pursuits take center stage for the year. You may find yourself more curious, talkative, and eager to learn. Your ability to express yourself is heightened, making this a great year for networking, studying, or starting new projects that require mental agility. Be cautious of becoming overly nervous or scattered in your focus.

Mercury in the 2nd House

With Mercury in the 2nd house, your thoughts and conversations will revolve around finances, possessions, and personal values. This year, you might explore new ways to make money, manage resources, or assess your worth. Analytical thinking will aid in budgeting and investment decisions. Be mindful of not becoming too materialistic or overly worried about financial matters.

Mercury in the 3rd House

Mercury in the 3rd house emphasizes communication, learning, and short trips. This year, you may be more involved in writing, teaching, or engaging in frequent conversations. Your mind will be sharp, and you could take on new studies or skills. Siblings, neighbors, and your immediate environment play a significant role in your experiences. Watch out for becoming too scattered or superficial in your interactions.

Mercury in the 4th House

When Mercury is in the 4th house, thoughts turn towards home, family, and personal foundations. You may find yourself more involved in family matters or interested in genealogy and history. Communication within the home becomes crucial, and you might engage in home improvement projects or move residences. Emotional intelligence is essential to navigate family dynamics effectively.

Mercury in the 5th House

With Mercury in the 5th house, creativity, romance, and children are highlighted. This year, you might explore creative writing, engage in playful intellectual pursuits, or enjoy hobbies that stimulate your mind. Romantic relationships could involve more communication and mental connection. Be aware of becoming too critical or analytical in matters of the heart.

Mercury in the 6th House

Mercury in the 6th house focuses on work, health, and daily routines. You’ll likely be busy with work-related tasks, and your attention to detail will be sharp. This is an excellent time to organize your workspace, improve efficiency, and focus on health through diet and exercise. Avoid becoming overly worried about minor health issues or getting bogged down in mundane details.

Mercury in the 7th House

When Mercury is in the 7th house, partnerships and relationships take center stage. Communication with significant others, business partners, or close friends becomes crucial. This year, you may negotiate contracts, resolve conflicts, or discuss the future of your relationships. Be cautious of becoming too argumentative or overly reliant on others for mental stimulation.

Mercury in the 8th House

With Mercury in the 8th house, your thoughts dive into deep, transformative topics such as psychology, finances, and shared resources. You might engage in research, explore occult subjects, or deal with inheritances and taxes. Intense conversations and a desire for profound understanding mark this year. Be mindful of becoming too secretive or obsessive in your thinking.

Mercury in the 9th House

Mercury in the 9th house emphasizes higher learning, travel, and philosophical exploration. This year, you might pursue studies, travel abroad, or engage in discussions about religion, law, or ethics. Your mind will be open to new ideas and cultural experiences. Avoid being overly dogmatic or scattered in your intellectual pursuits.

Mercury in the 10th House

When Mercury is in the 10th house, career, and public image are in focus. This year, you might take on roles that require communication, writing, or teaching. Your professional reputation could be shaped by how effectively you express your ideas. Networking and strategic thinking will benefit your career. Be careful of becoming too consumed with public opinion or overly concerned with status.

Mercury in the 11th House

With Mercury in the 11th house, social connections, and future goals take precedence. This year, you might join groups, clubs, or organizations that align with your interests. Friendships and networking play a significant role in achieving your aspirations. Collaborative projects and innovative ideas will flourish. Avoid spreading yourself too thin or becoming overly dependent on group approval.

Mercury in the 12th House

Mercury in the 12th house brings a focus on introspection, spirituality, and hidden matters. This year, you might find yourself drawn to meditation, dreams, and subconscious exploration. Communication may take on a more private or secretive nature. Writing in a journal or engaging in solitary intellectual pursuits can be beneficial. Be mindful of becoming too reclusive or overwhelmed by unconscious fears.

Retrograde

Mercury retrograde in the houses of a Solar Return chart signifies a year of introspection, reevaluation, and revisiting past issues related to the themes of each house. Communication may be more reflective and internalized, with possible misunderstandings and delays in these areas.

In the 1st house, it prompts self-reflection and identity reassessment

In the 2nd house, a reevaluation of finances and values

In the 3rd house, reconsideration of communication and local interactions

In the 4th house, reflection on family and home life

In the 5th house, rethinking creativity and romance

In the 6th house, revisiting work and health routines

In the 7th house, reassessing relationships

In the 8th house, deep introspection on shared resources and transformations

In the 9th house, reconsideration of beliefs and long-distance matters

In the 10th house, reevaluation of career and public image

In the 11th house, reflection on friendships and future goals

In the 12th house, a deep dive into the subconscious and hidden aspects of life.

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roseareeh · 5 months ago

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hiiii! I would love to see your thoughts on the NSFW alphabet for either Eddie or Jonathan?? Maybe both if you feel so inclined to do both!! I loved the one for Steve :)

smooches!! <3

Thank you for the request!! I did Eddie for this ask because Jonathan is going to take me a bit since writing him is still new to me. I hope you enjoy! I'll tag you in the Jonathan one once it's up 🫶🏻

‼️MDNI‼️

NSFW Alphabet - Eddie Munson

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Very needy. All over you, kissing, hugging, making sure you're okay. But Eddie loves when you take him in your arms and play with his hair

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

BOOB MAN! He shamelessly takes peeks whenever he can. But they don't only look good, he likes to use them as pillows as well. Eddie loves listening to your heartbeat come steady again after he roughed you up

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

Loves when you swallow, especially when you show him afterwards that you did by sticking your tongue out

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Enjoys being dominated, even if he won't admit to that

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

He canonically has a bit of experience, but most of his experience happens with you. Honestly, he didn't know what he was doing in the beginning but with some patience and instruction Eddie now makes you sing like a bird

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

Cowgirl and Missionary.

Cowgirl because that plays into him enjoying being dominated. Plus, your boobs bounce so beautifully.

Missionary because he gets to see your face and kiss you. Especially when Eddie is feeling needy, it's his go-to.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

He makes jokes in between, but when you're exploring kinks together he's a bit more serious. But that won't stop Eddie from making fun of himself if he falls off the bed.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

I feel like he just let's it grow. Once you two started having sex regularly, he trimms it whenever he was time

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

Likes being romantic, but doesn't need it all the time. But he does see the way your face lits up when he's mid-thrusts and an "I love you." comes out. He loves it.

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

His sex-drive is high, so he jacks off a LOT. Once he got with you, it wasn't that much anymore, but he still does it when you're not around to help him.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

Bondage. Those handcuffs above his bed? They're for you.

He's also into light spanking, especially when your hands are tied behind your back and you're bend over his bed.

Occasionally, he's into spitting in your mouth but that only happens when the bondage and spanking is already involved.

Overall, he likes powerplay.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

The back of his van has become a favourite for the both of you. It's convenient, and his uncle can't just barge in. Although he's never been opposed to doing it in his bedroom as long as he knows he'll be alone for a while.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

Not even Eddie himself can pinpoint it. It's just you that turns him on. The way you walk, your smile, your laugh, everything. He loves you as a whole, and is attracted to you as a whole.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Hard spanking. You could beg him for it, but he could never hurt you too much. A red handprint doesn't bother him, but a bruise is too much. It already took you months to have him try out choking, and he's careful with that as well.

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Wouldn't admit it because he loves diving face-first into your pussy, but he prefers receiving just a bit more. It plays into how he loves cuming in your mouth.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

Usually, he's fast. In the beginning, Eddie was fast to a point where it was too fast, but he eventually found a good pace that both of you enjoyed.

He's very capable of going slow and sensual. Especially when he's being a big softie. That's always paired with soft kisses and lots of "I love you." 's.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

Doesn't mind them, that's why he has a blanket in the back of his van. He prefers having more time with you, but he's still a fan of quickies.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

Contrary to popular belief, he doesn't really like anything public. His van is the furthest he'd go. Only he gets to see you like that, and he'd prefer it to stay that way.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

After learning with you, he can go for a good 2 rounds and extensive foreplay. But he's dead-tired after that.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

Most of the toys are bondage toys. You two tried dildos out on you before, and while he enjoyed that it's not a stable in the bedroom.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

He does enjoy teasing you a lot. Hand on your thighs, on your butt, whispered comments on what he'd do to you. Likes seeing you riled up before giving you your release.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

Very vocal. He'll tell you how good you feel, that you're beautiful while getting pounded or how tight you feel around him. Eddie thinks it's important for you to know that you're doing a good job.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

Would live to try out roleplay, in which he'd get dominated. Like a cop-thief fantasy, for example.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

I think Eddie is pretty average, both in lenght and thickness. There's a curve to it, and he knows how to make you see stars with it. Pretty veiny as well, especially when he's hard.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

High. Very, very high. If he could, he'd do it all the time. When you're home alone and it's the weekend, you two barely leave the bedroom.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

Very fast. After a few minutes of kisses and cuddles, he falls asleep with his head on your chest (clothes or not)

#eddie munson x reader #eddie munson imagine #eddie munson smut

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loveemagicpeace · 5 months ago

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North node in Pisces & South Node in Virgo🦋🧜🏼‍♀️☁️

Pisces is a signs that is the most dreamy, illusional. You can expect a lot of things to be very spiritual. People can talk a lot more about mental health and things that are not seen. You will be much more committed to your world and to believing in something you believe in more.

*Sparkles ,shiny things, ocean, crystals, magical things, cakes, nostalgia, just vibing alone by the river ,listening to the music, cute things, hugs, hopeless romantic things. *

Love that is expressed in a much more selfless way. During this time, you can meet many people with whom you share a more magical path. Soulmates type of vibes. Love can become different, unconditional and sacrificial. During this time, you can sacrifice more for the people you love. Eternal Sunshine of the spotless mind type of love. Messy things, white dress with crystals. Having magical days. Connecting with your inner self, meditating, getting to know your subconscious. Sunsets & Sunrise. Magical path to stars. Finding imperfections in everything and loving it. With the North Node in Pisces, we're drawn to go deeper, beyond the obvious. Finding meaning in life is essential.

Feeling fulfilled and connected to the universe is incredibly important. Searching for answers beyond what's visible or measurable is a fundamental human drive. We are learning that it is okay not to have an answer, it is okay not to understand what is going on, it is okay not to know exactly where we are going. Just going with the flow - the fool (tarot card) journey. Things don't have to be logical or make any sense. Just you knowing and believing that this things exist it is enough. Believe in magic.

South node in Virgo

Forgetting what hard work feels like forgetting everything, not being perfect. Change the routine you have had so far and follow your body more closely. Give up the work you've been doing so far and take a new, better path. Wear something you feel comfortable in and don't wear something just to please others or to look good. Eat healthier foods. It will help you release the need to micromanage and over-analyze. This opens space for creativity and emotional connection. And there's no rush! Doing things more slowly.

In Virgo, the South Node's focus will be to clear up the path so we can actually make progress and navigate effectively. It could also mean exploring different approaches to diet and exercise. Instead, it encourages us to find ways of adjusting our lifestyle that feel natural and sustainable for our unique needs. We're likely to see shifts in how we run our lives and operate on a day-to-day basis.

The South Node in Virgo is an invitation to release the excessive need for control, perfectionism, and rigid planning, while still appreciating the value of order, organization, and effort. This combination of energies reflects a general inclination towards overthinking, overanalyzing, and overworrying. Ultimately, this transit teaches us to let go of impossible ideals and expectations, accept our humanness, and acknowledge the beauty in imperfection.

If u have nodes reversed

The nodes in reverse transit challenge you to revisit the lessons of your North Node (Virgo) while simultaneously confronting the patterns of your South Node (Pisces). Virgo north node in chart-Your soul's growth path is about practicality, organization, discernment, and service. You're here to refine your boundaries and embrace the material world, focusing on creating tangible results.

South Node in Pisces: Your comfort zone involves spirituality, imagination, escapism, and an emotional connection to the collective. In past lives (or earlier in this life), you may have avoided practical concerns or become too absorbed in dreams and emotions.

You might feel drawn to spiritual practices, artistic expression, or moments of surrender. This is an opportunity to reconnect with your intuitive side and integrate it into your life without losing your grounded focus. Your Virgo North Node lessons may temporarily take a backseat as you're asked to reflect on whether your pursuit of order and practicality is serving your highest good—or if it's become rigid or overbearing. Themes of sacrifice, forgiveness, and emotional boundaries may come up. Be cautious of falling back into self-sacrificing patterns (South Node in Pisces) but remain open to deep emotional connection. This is an ideal time to deepen meditation, explore creative outlets (like poetry, music, or painting), or connect with mystical experiences.

For Rising Signs

Aries Rising: The North Node in Pisces will activate your 12th house, urging you to embrace spiritual growth, solitude, and deep introspection. It's a time to let go of control and trust the unseen forces of the universe. The South Node in Virgo in your 6th house will challenge you to release perfectionism in your daily routines and work habits while balancing your need for practical organization with intuitive flow.

Taurus Rising: The North Node in Pisces highlights your 11th house, focusing on spiritual connections, dreams, and your role in the collective. You may feel drawn to compassionate friendships and humanitarian efforts. The South Node in Virgo in your 5th house asks you to release overcritical tendencies in your creative expression or love life and to embrace joy without judgment.

Gemini Rising: The North Node in Pisces will activate your 10th house, asking you to align your career with your higher purpose and to trust your intuition in professional matters. The South Node in Virgo in your 4th house invites you to let go of the need for control in family dynamics or home life and to create a balance between work and emotional grounding.

Cancer Rising: With the North Node in Pisces in your 9th house, you're encouraged to explore spiritual teachings, higher learning, and the bigger picture of life. Let your intuition guide you toward personal growth. The South Node in Virgo in your 3rd house asks you to release overthinking and excessive focus on small details in communication and daily interactions.

Leo Rising: The North Node in Pisces in your 8th house brings transformation, deep emotional healing, and a focus on spiritual intimacy. You're encouraged to surrender to the mysteries of life and trust in rebirth. The South Node in Virgo in your 2nd house challenges you to let go of material security or overly analytical approaches to finances, focusing instead on emotional and spiritual wealth.

Virgo Rising: The North Node in Pisces in your 7th house shifts your focus toward spiritual partnerships and relationships based on compassion and unconditional love. It's a time to open your heart and trust in deeper connections. The South Node in Virgo in your ist house asks you to release self-critical tendencies and embrace a more intuitive approach to your identity.

Libra Rising: The North Node in Pisces in your 6th house brings attention to holistic healing, spiritual practices, and service to others. You're invited to align your daily routines with emotional and spiritual well-being. The South Node in Virgo in your 12th house urges you to release guilt, overthinking, and tendencies to self-sacrifice behind the scenes.

Scorpio Rising: The North Node in Pisces in your 5th house encourages you to explore creativity, romance, and joy with a spiritual or imaginative touch. It's time to embrace vulnerability in self-expression. The South Node in Virgo in your 11th house challenges you to release overly critical judgments of your social circle and to embrace a more compassionate view of friendships and group dynamics.

Sagittarius Rising: The North Node in Pisces in your 4th house highlights emotional healing, spiritual connection to your roots, and finding peace in your private life. It's a time to create a sanctuary for your soul. The South Node in Virgo in your 10th house asks you to let go of perfectionism in your career or public image and to prioritize inner fulfillment over external validation.

Capricorn Rising: The North Node in Pisces in your 3rd house inspires intuitive communication, spiritual learning, and imaginative thinking. Trust your instincts in how you share ideas. The South Node in Virgo in your 9th house challenges you to release rigid belief systems or overanalyzing philosophical concepts, encouraging a more fluid approach to personal growth

Aquarius Rising: The North Node in Pisces in your 2nd house invites you to align your values with compassion, spirituality, and emotional richness. It's a time to trust your intuition in financial matters. The South Node in Virgo in your 8th house encourages you to let go of obsessive control over shared resources or deep emotional entanglements and to embrace trust and flow.

Pisces Rising: The North Node in Pisces in your 1st house calls you to embrace your spiritual identity, intuitive gifts, and compassionate leadership. It's a time of self-discovery and authenticity. The South Node in Virgo in your 7th house asks you to release overcritical tendencies in relationships and to allow partnerships to flow with grace and understanding.

-Rebekah🦋☁️🧜🏼‍♀️

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gotigersiguess · 4 months ago

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I want to talk about how Duffers write romantic subplots, because it's such a simple, but at the same time effective way to make people invested. TL;DR: it's usually a love triangle.

Every potential couple in the show obviously starts with the typical will-they-won't-they dynamic. Most of the time, will-they-won't-they is actually what the audience enjoys in a story, it builds the anticipation until we finally hit crescendo - after all that juicy build-up, the couple finally gets together. Now, it's important not to lose the momentum and keep the audience invested. Budding or established relationships could get boring pretty quickly so it's important to throw in some internal (emotional) or external conflicts (supernatural and/or a third party) into the mix. Duffers love their love triangles. It's usually clear who the narrative favors in that dynamic - that couple gets all the heart-to-hearts and is shown to have a mutual understanding / similar values. Let's see some examples:

(I won't mention Dustin and Suzie, that relationship is not explored at all)

Lucas / Max / Dustin

We get a bit of the will-they-won't-they with some internal and external conflicts mixed in (the latter one involves Dustin as a third party only briefly), Lucas is favored by the narrative, Lucas and Max get together at the end of season 2. Season 3 doesn't really explore that relationship further, we see some hints of it (like them breaking up and getting back together constantly). Their romantic subplot takes a backseat in that season. Season 4 starts with them being broken up. Now, things are becoming more interesting. We get the will-they-won't-they once again, we get internal (emotional) and external (supernatural) conflicts to develop both the characters and their romance. A third party is not needed here, they have enough going on for them. We get a possible resolution of them getting together, followed by another obstacle (Max almost dies). The audience is invested, the relationship is at it's peak. We're all rooting for them to be together and live happily ever after.

Steve / Nancy / Jonathan

We get the will-they-won't they, we get conflicts and a third party (first Jonathan, then Steve). Jonathan and Nancy's relationship gets established, but to keep things going we get some new conflicts in season 4 - long-distance, fears for their future, supernatural threat and a third party once again (Steve). Their romantic subplot is engaging and unresolved. The narrative at this point in time favors Jonathan, because he is shown to have the same wants and values as Nancy.

Hopper / Joyce / Bob

The will-they-won't they - check, conflicts - check, a third party (Bob) - check. The narrative favors Hopper so much that Bob dies. Still, the will-they-won't they and external conflicts persist to keep the audience engaged and further the plot. We finally get a resolution in season 4, because season 5 will have enough relationship drama in our love triangles to feed the audience.

El / Mike / Will

This dynamic has the will they won't they of all the will they won't they's (sorry for that monstrosity of a sentence). First, we get the intrigue of Mike and El's potential relationship - they are kept apart by the external conflict. Once they get together, the audience doesn't get a room to breath - season 3 introduces another conflict (Hopper and Mike's lie) in the first episode. This couple's internal and external conflicts continue to haunt the narrative, but this time they're used to further the characters individual arcs. They almost seem to be out of sync: season 3 ends in El reviving the romantic part of their relationship while Mike is confused, season 4 ends in Mike doing the same while El is in pain. Both times, we don't get a mutual happy resolution for their subplot. A third party (Will) is always present in that triangle, even before the eventual confirmation of his feelings for Mike. Time and time again, we are shown that Mike can't manage both El and Will at the same time. The narrative favors Will in both season 3 and 4 - we get the heart to hearts, we get invested in Will's feelings, we once again get the internal and external conflicts that further only El's emotional arc and Mike's emotional arc respectfully, but never resolve their romantic subplot in a satisfying way. We're going into season 5 with the knowledge that El and Mike are still out of sync in their romantic subplot. The narrative continues to favor Will.

Let me know if I missed anything.

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thementalshawty · 7 months ago

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PAC WHAT TYPE OF LOVE IS ENTERING YOUR LIFE?

Hey my baby babes! Here is the reading I promised you guys!!! This reading been on my mind since I did the last one honestly and I’m guessing some of you are curious but instead of asking spirit of love is coming into your life I’m going to ask what kind of love because love comes in our life everyday in big and small ways so I decided to ask in what way love is entering your lives soon.

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Pile 1

Now I know a lot of you are thinking the worse when you see this card but I’m not getting anything negative or low energetic about this love coming in. Actually quite the opposite, I heard liberating. There’s something here that you and this person share in common that’s coming in, honestly the kind of love I’m hearing is through a trauma bond maybe? I’m seeing two people praising one god or goddess. I’m seeing that it may be a friendship here. It can be a same sex love too if that’s what you’re into, I see carnal pleasure being fulfilled here, friends with benefits for sure!!! I’m not getting romantic vibes honestly from this, I’m seeing this love is a love that helps you break the chain that you are currently in, you can be in a cycle that you’re completely unaware of. This person can be a Capricorn, be Capricornic, they are not a satanist or satanic and even if they’re into that they’re not into bringing you into it I’m hearing sacred so what they believe in is very sacred they very RARELY SHARE THAT! This is why again I don’t feel it’s a romantic love it can even be a new belief that’s coming and not a person if you get my drift or some kind of inspiration, love comes in very many a way so we need to look for something deeper sometimes and this isn’t a romantic love, I’m seeing it can be sexual or passionate though here, exploring each others carnal fantasies! so fuccin funny the bottom of the decc is the 8oS! so even more confirmation! You’re gaining freedom from whatever chain you’ve got going on in your head! Youre binded to a thought about yourself some kind of belief and I see it coming undone and since there’s two people I do believe someone else is involved but again idk if it’s romantic im still not seeing it go anywhere more than some wild nights together frfr but i see you’ll be so beyond happy you met this person it’s like a pent up farmer girl who becomes friends with the free spirited city girl roommate showing her how to let loose vibes. That’s very much the energy im getting from this pile, you may be meeting your bestie here guys!!!

Thanks for Reading.

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Pile 2

So the kind of love I see coming into your life isn’t romantically at all, welp, you or this person may see it that way, I’m seeing some kind of delusionary connection that’s coming into your life, it’s almost like it’s too good to be true, this person and it’s not that they’re not good it’s just like, they aren’t really into love or I’m seeing they’re not into you like that but you want them too be or you feel they might be or it can be that they feel this way about you and you don’t about them. There’s some kind of imbalance here between you and this person it can also be a disconnect from your heart and this love that’s coming in will help you reconnect with the badass mf that is you. I’m seeing that one of you could be hurt by love and emotions, hiding your cup and forcing it away, but this love will help you want to offer your cup but I don’t see it happening early on, I see this is a slow to romance connection if there’s any chance or possibility! If not then it’s a crush frfr that’s going to go south and you’ll realize this person HAS NOOOOOOOO feelings for you at all and that shit may destroy you, I’m sorry but it’s reality I feel like this connection is so delusionary that you can get lost in the wishful thinking, maybe they drop hints of affection or your misreading them. At the bottom of the deck you have the 2oP! so I’m seeing that there may be TWO types of love coming in, or a decision has to be made, maybe you wanted to date two people at the same time and it’s just not happening right for you, also I’m hearing your crush could be denying you but then someone else likes you, that you’re not even noticing it’s giving 5oC energy you’re only looking at what spilled and not even paying attention to what’s new and being offered. You will need to decide who you’re going to give your cup too because one of the choices are definite more romantic, balanced and will work out for you more than the other one. The choice is yours. Also I’m seeing some money coming in so you can chill, I feel like you are someone who never stops to take a break or breathe or nothing and this connection or this love that’s coming in whether it be a person promotion or both is some kind of disappointment, it’s going to help bring balance and control back into your life and it feels like you’ve been falling of your rotational strength as of late don’t worry baby you’ll get it bacc I promise. Don’t lose hope I’m hearing. I’m hearing that if it is a person that’s not for you don’t think less of you someone else is coming or is already there and you’re jus not giving them the time of day or you don’t think they want you either! I want more information about this one I will upload a deeper meaning to the reading on my Patreon.

Thanks for reading.

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Pile 3

Now this kind of love is straight up TOXIC! I see that this is not romantic it all it just involves a woman or someone who identifies themselves with more feminine energies. This person is an energy vampire but I see you taking bacc what was stolen. I see that this can be a friend or family member but I’m seeing that this person is a emotional manipulator that love to play cat and mouse game to end up on top this person can be a water sign frfr cancer vibes mostly, this person is very low vibes and and energy they don’t want to do anything but cause chaos and destruction! You don’t need that in your life, like all the readings I’m seeing that this love coming in is bringing in major clarity it can be someone or something that helps you see the toxic person for what they are and take back your energy it’s giving that song by botdf bewitched. (I don’t stand with Dahvie but Jay Vanity (DAHLI) is my heart). I see that this person is used to being put on a pedestal by someone whether it be you or the ones around them, either way they’re very spoiled and they’re no good for you! I’m seeing that you’re going to finally see the truth for what it is. This person brings drama and dark clouds you’re going to want nothing to do with this person and you’re going to reclaim all of your power! its almost like whatever draining you will be poured back into you. You’re rubber, they’re glue what they do bounces off you and sticks back to them! You will also feel so liberated hmm this may be connected to pile 1 so if you felt pulled there then this may be the answer cos I think this is the part 2 or the more information it’s giving freedom too, but this is from an actual person it can be a negative ex you may be going too or friend someone that you let slide always on their shit I’m seeing that it’s going to end and that you’ll realize this person again it can even be you just being in low vibrational space and you’re finally becoming self conscious and doing something about it whether then just waiting for someone to come help. Self care is needed!! So self love is coming into your life fashoooooo SELF SELF SELF! Go and treat yourself to some grade A fun you deserve it.

Thank you for reading.

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And just like that folks we are done I hope that this reading brought clarity and you guys enjoy it!

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mystic11moon · 7 months ago

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Rahu/North node Synastry Part2:

Rahu conjunct Venus: In synastry, this is like out of fairytale love story💞 Especially if it's the guy rahu conjuct the women venus! The Rahu person will give the venus person lots of gifts. The rahu person will increase the beauty of the venus person. Like, literally, when this happened, the couple glowed up! They will enjoy lots of romantic vacations together. Venus person will invoke rahu person passionate energy and the rahu person will feel so loved, it's like their purpose now is to love and they become more passionate about life and future when being with the venus person. It denotes more love and passionate energy to look forward to.

Rahu Conjunct Mars: Now this is a very hot and powerful alignment in synastry 🔥 When these 2 people met each other, it was an instant connection. The fiery warm tingling sensation is triggered in the heart❤️ This signifies a really high sexual attraction! The sexual compatibility is very high. This conjunction works best if it's the male's mars conjunct the women's rahu. The rahu person will increase the aggression of the mars person, the mars person will be more possessive towards the rahu person and the jealousy level will be high. The rahu person will find the Mars person dominating side very appealing. There would be intense physical intimacy involved, which can help to heal and channel both partners's lilith energy. Both partners would be obsessed with each other! Sometimes, this fiery alignment triggers conflicts that can cause the Mars person to self h@rm. This can be healed if mercury is aspecting or is also in conjunction with this alignment since the conflict resolution will be intense and needs lots of communication. In this, both people will become more motivated and ambitious together to achieve their goals. Whenever they're together, they become more energetic. These people love to play wrestling or any rough sports together, especially if it's forming in the 6th house in either one chart. Overall, it's very exciting and intense.

Rahu Conjunct Jupiter: Being kids like together💖 These people, when they meet each other they feel like they have known each other since childhood! They feel so happy spending time together as it's sooo fun and life become exciting, full of colours and sparks again!

Lots of spiritual and intellectual growth✨️These 2 people when they're together they'll suddenly feel more happy and uplifted. When they are together, they suddenly become very lucky . For example, let's say it's happening on a partner's A chart in the 2nd house, so partner A suddenly starts to get more money whereby in partner's B chart the jupiter & rahu synastry is occurring in 4th house so the partner B suddenly get an vehicle or a house. They energy is amazing, but then both partners together tend to become overly optimistic about their future relationship potential, which makes them unable to acknowledge certain blind spot that could be very damaging to the relationship. Moreover, the jupiter person tends to become more generous when they're around rahu person and the jupiter person love teaching or become like a guide to the rahu person. The jupiter person help to ease the rahu person life purpose journey. Since, rahu person feel it is easier for them to achieve their goals when they're together with the jupiter person. The rahu person motivates the jupiter person to grow more spiritually, and it triggers spiritual awakening within the jupiter person, especially if it's happening in the 8th or 12th house in the jupiter person chart. This synastry represents lots of opportunities to explore together.

So there ya go, when we look at what houses these synastry are happening in, it tells us how the other person certain energy is going to transform that area of our life.

Feel free to ask more regarding it💖

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princesssmars · 2 years ago

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thinking of karlach who once her engine cools off goes fucking ballistic. nsfw, fem! reader, me being horny for karlach because who isn't. baldur's gate 3 spoilers! i've only finished act one so i start improvising shit.

now, for a woman who has not been able to have even a hint of physical contact for ten years, you have to give her her flowers with how well she seems to deal with being incredibly emotionally and sexually frustrated.

but once she joins your party that hold she had over her body and brain starts to crack. fast.

hell, it started happening before the two of you became romantically involved. while she was drawn to you from the moment you said "yes" to helping a stranger kill a building full of people, she also had eyes and constantly wondered how everyone in the party was so attractive. astarion was never not flirting with someone, wyll was incredibly kind to her, and she could tell when shadowheart was admiring her physique...

but after a few weeks of traveling, fighting, and making friends for the first time in years, eventually during those quiet nights at camp she finds you invading her mind her mind when she rests in her tent to fall asleep, kind of like the parasite, but in a good way.

she thinks of a joke you you made when the two of you were eating by the fire that made her snort like a pig, the way you explored a dungeon and when you found a magical war axe immediately turned to her and gave it to her with a smile, how you so quickly stood up for her when wyll was adamant on killing her because of her past.

your kindness, your intelligence (she's amused when you act like a dumbass and fail when trying to persuade someone), just everything about you, it was only a matter of time before she asked you to join her when everyone fell asleep one night, talking about how you thankfully return her feelings. it takes a turn when you bring up how her condition leaves her pent up, and as you're whispering the sinful things you cant wait to do to her and she do to you.

it hits her full force that oh, she does actually want to fuck your brains out.

after that night everything you do starts to turn her on. like, horrendously. eating a snack on the road? all she can focus on is the way your lips move around the fruit. dancing to a song volo is playing? she's becoming entranced by the way your hips and arms move to the music.

once when the sun was set and the moon was high she headed down to the lake, figuring the rest of the party had already cleaned themselves when she started to undress on the sand, standing still as a statue when she spots you in the middle of the lake, rinsing out your hair when you turn around to look at her.

she can see the water falling from your hair to your shoulders, dripping down over the peak of your nipples, some falling down your chest to between yours legs-

when she comes back later after running off, the ground where she stood was scorched.

but until her engine got fixed, her nights were spent inside her tent rubbing at her clit and fingering her cunt while pretending it was you. the only thing that makes it better is when she can tell you about all the naughty things she thinks about you and seeing you squirm.

once dammon gets another piece of infernal iron and gives her the final upgrade she needs to have physical contact, she at least has the courtesy to take you to a rented room in an inn before she ravages you.

shes tossing you on to the bed and wondering if she should slow down, take it slow with you for your first time together to make it all the more special, but you're staring at her while she's contemplating and youre taking off your top and then youre pants and then youre pulling her by the arm on top of you and she realizes she can save the softness for later.

there's so much kissing, pulling, biting and moaning that after both of your first two orgasms she starts to feel dizzy. she swears shes never felt a greater pleasure than when you were cumming on her fingers, or when you brought her hips up to your face and made her ride your tongue.

she reaches down to your bag that was throw haphazardly on to the floor earlier and finds the toy you bought, the tiefling smiling so brightly her fangs are on full display as she aligns the double sided dildo with your entrance, nearly going cross eyed at the way it slips inside of you before she sticks the other end into her.

she throws your legs over her shoulders, hold your hands in hers, and starts thrusting so quickly its almost like she's afraid she'll die if she stops.

and she is. she has never felt as good as she does in this moment, fucking the toy into you before feeling it do the same to her every time she pulls her hips back.

shes thinking about how much she loves you when she feels your right hand claw at her back.

shes wondering how someone can be so damn beautiful when you arch your back and nearly scream out her name.

she can barely contain herself when she thinks about how she gets to fuck you like this for the rest of her life when her hand leaves yours and grabs onto the wooden bedpost.

your moans of ecstasy reach a pitch and her eyes are taking in every detail as you come undone, to the heaving of your chest and the fluttering of your lashes. its your gentle whisper of her name and a gentle kiss to her lips that tips her over the edge, grinding her hips faster to the point it starts to hurt and she feels her hands tightening and tightening-

her high feels like it lasts forever before she comes back down to earth, breathing heavy with a dopey smile on her face when she looks at you. she's confused by the look on your face, similarly blissed out but your cheeks are bunched up in that way that means youre trying to hold in a laugh...

its only then she starts to feel it : a large chunk of the headboard is in her hand, snapped almost clean off from the rest of in im the height of her euphoria. she cant help but laugh which makes you finally laugh which just makes you laugh harder.

she drops the wood and shakes her hand of any splinters when your hands are wrapping around her neck and pulling her back into you.

she doesn't feel that bad about it.

i've resorted to getting ideas from both dreams and those thoughts you turn into stories while trying to go to sleep im like a genius. i put this in the queue posted it and it only showed up on my blog whats with that.

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astrolook · 3 months ago

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💚#2 Double Whammy Synastry: When the Universe Copy-Pastes Green Flags on Both Sides 💚

Note: If you haven't read my last post, here's part 1 - Double Whammy Synastry Part-1

Planets through 4th - 12th houses:

Planet falling on each other's 4th house -

Good: Instant homey vibes. Could create a sanctuary called home together. One or both of you might want to introduce each other to your parents early on. Being with the other feels like coming home after a long day. Netflix and couch snuggles are common.

Bad: If childhood wounds get triggered, one or both of you may feel emotionally vulnerable or defensive. One being too dependent on the other for emotional security. Family opinions may heavily influence the relationship like they either love you or despise you. Emotional or physical abuse from the other is possible here.

Planet falling on each other's 5th house -

Good: Brings out each other's inner child. If kids are ever a topic, you both imagine having the coolest ones. Or, at the very least, a pet with a ridiculously fun name. Both of you make the other the center of the their life.

Bad: If jealousy comes into play, things get messy fast. Ignores red flags like "They ghosted me for 3 days, but they just planned a surprise weekend trip, so it’s fine… right". One of you is not as serious as the other one. Arguments can be heated. The chemistry is either 100% on or completely off, with no in-between. If kids are involved, a single parent.

Planet falling on each other's 6th house -

Good: You instinctively take care of each other. Daily routines just click. Productivity skyrockets in LTR or marriages. Enjoys running errands together. This connection has serious slow-burn potential. What starts as a reliable friendship can unexpectedly turn into deep love over time.

Bad: Predictable and boring. One of you micromanage the other's life. Can feel like a co-worker/roommate than a passionate relationship sometimes. One of you might take things for granted like one becoming an unpaid assistant to the other. One of you could feel underappreciated. One might treat the other like a doormat.

Planet falling on each other's 7th house -

Good: Could see each other as ideal friend/partner. Even if you start off as friends, there’s always that “hmm… but what if?” lingering in the background. A perfect yin-yang dynamic. Romantic attraction is strong here. Commitment feels like a logical step. You challenge each other in ways that lead to growth instead of destruction. Naturally fit into each other's lives unless there are no nasty aspects/placements ruining the vibe.

Bad: One doesn't wanna commit to the other. Either love each other or hate each other. If one of you isn’t living up to the other’s ideal partner fantasy, disappointment and resentment can creep in. One of you might have unrealistic expectations on the other. Can lead to divorce.

Planet falling on each other's 8th house -

Good: You both change each other on a soul level, whether you like it or not. The emotional and physical intimacy is off the charts. If you’re in, you’re all in. You know what the other is feeling without a single word. “what’s mine is yours too”.

Bad: One of you hates the other with a passion. One of you might be in it for convenience rather than true love. Betrayals hit harder and forgiveness doesn't come easy. If broke up, one of you can go full revenge-mode or cutting ties off completely never to be seen again in their life. Can be one-sided attraction.

Planet falling on each other's 9th house -

Good: There’s a natural openness and acceptance between you. No matter how different your backgrounds or beliefs, you actually listen to each other. You both thrive when exploring new places together. Even during tough times, there’s this underlying feeling that “everything will be okay.” Long-distance relationships based on communication and trust. One or both of you leave everything behind for the other and start anew. Elopement marriage is possible.

Bad: Commitment is optional for one of you or both. One wants an open relationship while other wants monogamy or sometimes shit happens behind your back. Can be casual or short term too. If broke up, one will ghost and block the other in real life.

Planet falling on each other's 10th house -

Good: Both of you are serious in terms of career, status or long-term goals. Admires each other and might make a great team. Solid, respectable power couple. Relationship is an investment not a fling. Another placement common in long-term marriages.

Bad: More like business merger. Can be really platonic. Transactional relationship like PR relationship/marriages. Breakups won't be private and feels like a PR crisis. One of them is in it for climbing up the ladder than real love. Can be short-term.

Planet falling on each other's 11th house -

Good: Genuinely like each other not just love. Drama-free connection. Might engage in humanitarian work or adopting pets/kids together. No clinginess and no control issues. You introduce each other to your friends, amazing networks, from career opportunities to cool new social circles.

Bad: It can feel too platonic. Could be friends with benefits. Friends might have a lot of opinions about your love life. One of you is friend-zoned by the other. Love triangle situations are possible here.

Planet falling on each other's 12th house -

Good: A psychic connection between you two. Feels like both of you are meant to meet. Heals each other like you're each other's built-in therapist. Feels safe with each other without fear of judgement. A past-life connection. You just know things about each other without words, just their body language is enough to show the other is either feeling happy or down.

Bad: One-sided- it stays in the realm of fantasy instead of reality. Could be hiding their naughty secrets from the other. If one or both of you struggle with personal demons (addictions, mental health issues, toxic patterns), this can amplify them rather than heal them. One doesn't wanna acknowledge the other as their partner. Sometimes the other man/woman. If kids are involved, another single parent placement.

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choosing ─ bucky barnes x reader x ava starr

summary: you started to fall for bucky almost as soon as you met, but it's impossible to pretend like you completely got over your complex feelings for ava. pairing: bucky barnes x fem!reader, ava starr x fem!reader word count: 7.6k tags: bisexual!reader, poly dynamics (nothing happens between bucky and ava tho), new avengers featured, angst and fluff, comfort too i guess, happy ending, kissing, proofread but this story changed a lot so some pronouns might be all over the place because it used to be an oc fic rather than x reader oops so keep that in mind!

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The chemistry between you and Bucky is undeniable. There's something about the playful banter and the stolen glances here and there when one of you thinks the other isn't looking that makes it painfully obvious. You two aren't just co-workers or friends.

You were somewhat aware of Bucky's existence before getting involved in all of this mess. You have heard a few things about the tragic fate of Steve Rogers' best friend and his path of redemption. The former assassin becomes a struggling politician.

But Bucky probably didn't know much about you before the team was formed. How could he? You’ve been keeping an extremely low profile most of your life. That's how you keep a good reputation in your line of work. You’re good at disappearing and making people disappear. One of a kind, as the Kingpin used to remind you. He was the one who recommended you to Valentina before you officially cut any ties– from one shitty employer to another.

There was something there from the moment the two of you met, after you and the others managed to escape that death trap Valentina had set for everyone. An unspoken thing that somehow was too loud to ignore.

Perhaps neither of you wanted to acknowledge it at the time. Perhaps you thought nothing would come out of it. Perhaps you were way too focused on the life-or-death situation involving The Sentry to really pay any attention to your growing chemistry.

Bucky can't even remember the last time he has felt anything remotely romantic towards someone else, his love life being as much of a failure as his work as congressman so far. But that vacancy in his heart was something he had become used to at that point, because he simply didn't have the energy or time to care.

As for you, you have also grown accustomed to being alone, coming to terms with the idea of it after so many years in this line of work. You tried exploring the idea of having a partner but it just didn't work out the way you expected. Eventually, you figured it would be better if you didn't have those distractions, and you didn't want to put someone in danger by dragging them into your shitty life because you were selfish enough to keep them around.

But that was before. Now, you're apparently stepping up as 'The New Avengers', and that changes everything.

You all live together at the old Avengers Tower, which means you and Bucky started spending a lot of time together. There are plenty of nights where you have stayed up just talking about whatever you and Bucky feel like sharing with each other, seeing far beyond the harsh exterior you two present to the world.

This newfound proximity has made Bucky realize how painfully large that empty spot in his heart truly is, and it has shown you that it's okay to be a little selfish sometimes.

The banter is just straight up flirting at this point and pretty much everyone in the team knows what is going on– including her.

Ava has been oddly unfazed by it, and even when you should probably be relieved that she doesn't seem to care, it's impossible to deny that such indifference hurts.

It's almost pathetic to think she was one of the main reasons why you were holding back from even allowing yourself to process your attraction to Bucky in the first place, thinking you owe it to her after all these years. What a slap in the face it is to realize how little everything meant to her.

Your relationship is anything but simple. You met through Valentina, working on a few assignments together here and there but nothing too serious. Eventually, you started to get closer, but you were never an official couple– in fact, you’re not entirely sure Ava even wanted to be your girlfriend in the first place. She just needed someone to rely on and you were there to provide the comfort and companionship she's been craving for a very long time, absolutely tired of being (and feeling) alone.

You gave her a sense of purpose she thought she'd never be able to find...or so she said, because it looks like she never gave a fuck about whatever it was that you two had.

But perhaps you not working out was for the better. The situation just wasn't ideal. You had a lot of work at the time and many things to figure out on your own. Too unavailable. You would avoid any interaction that differed from a friendly or professional exchange to avoid getting into a situation where you might not know how to escape safely when it inevitably leads to failure. Ava would say something like "I've never felt this way about anyone before". And then you let her in. And then Ava would disappear. It was an endless circle– one of you would say something outrageous before avoiding contact for weeks.

Would it have worked now that you're in a far more stable situation? If Bucky never showed up, would you be together now? Ava's behavior seems to answer those questions right away. Perhaps you not working out was for the better.

You have come to a point where you wish Ava would just ignore you. That would mean that perhaps she cares at least a little bit. Instead, she acts completely normal. She simply does not care that the girl who (supposedly) 'gave her a sense of purpose' is getting closer to someone else. Not happy, not upset...just nothing.

Her indifference evidently pisses you off, because you genuinely thought that what you had was special...it was to you, at least. It’s frustrating to think back on all of those instances when you almost dared to take that extra step…to suggest that you could leave your lives as Valentina’s little helpers behind and just try to figure things out on your own. You genuinely thought that you could’ve had your chance to finally be together.

That explains why you struggled to admit to yourself that you were developing feelings for Bucky, or why you were reluctant at first to let your connection develop even further. It was only when you realized Ava never truly cared about you that you finally understood it was pointless to maintain any sense of loyalty. You let go of the guilt of developing feelings for someone else– feelings scarily similar to the ones you were developing towards Ava before everything was suddenly over between you.

Still, even when you should feel at peace with it, knowing you’re free to explore your feelings for Bucky, you don't feel okay at all. If anything, you just feel conflicted. A part of you wants to focus entirely on Bucky, but another part of you is still trying to understand how Ava is so nonchalant about this when she used to stroke your hair in the middle of the night as she thanked her for changing her life.

Any reasonable person would expect that someone with such claims would give a fuck, right?

The whole situation is confusing. You know you really like Bucky. The feelings you have for him are real and exciting. He has proven to you his intentions are sincere and genuine, and he's not afraid to express his feelings for you.

But even then, you can't deny you still care a lot about Ava. You wish you could magically forget about what you went through together, but you just can't let go of those memories. You never got a proper closure. Never quite figured out why you could never make things work. It’s impossible to let someone go when you don't fully understand the reasons why you should let them go in the first place.

These thoughts invade your mind from time to time, torturing you with the uncertainty of it all. This is definitely one of those days where you’re fixated on it. They distracted you at your training session this morning and haunted you in the shower later. Even now, as you’re walking towards the kitchen, is all you can think about.

To your luck, you bump into each other, just as Ava is trying to leave the kitchen and you’re trying to walk in. Again, you wish the other woman would just completely ignore you, or perhaps look at you with eyes filled with disappointment and betrayal. You just want her to do something. Anything to let you know she cares.

“Bob brought everyone donuts this morning, if you want some," she says extremely casually, pointing back at the kitchen before intending to continue walking.

Donuts were the breaking point, apparently.

"You've got to be kidding me, Ava."

"What?" she asks, acting genuinely confused.

"You know exactly what I'm talking about."

Her expression changes almost immediately, jaw tightening just enough and her eyes darkening. Her face is a reflection of the uncomfortable situation she's about to endure. The inevitable conversation she knows she can't keep avoiding.

"Could we go somewhere more private?"

You don't say anything back, which Ava takes as a silent agreement. You start walking towards the elevator, immediately hitting the button that would take you to the rooftop. It's highly unlikely anyone is up there now. They're mostly up here when they want to watch the sunset or just sit underneath the stars and chat until one of you is tired enough to fall asleep (that's almost always John).

You reach the rooftop, walking towards the small balcony area that all of you set up as a team. Each of you has a designated recliner because Alexei suggested it. The area is decorated with tons of plants that you and Yelena take care of. Ava hanged a few fairy lights on the wall. Bob tends to forget a book or two up here that somehow always contributes to the decor. Bucky claims he got a free candle at a market once and decided to keep it here (everyone knows he probably bought it intentionally but just won't confess it). Oh, and John brought a pillow from his bed once and it's still here for some reason. The entire place is painfully theirs, everyone contributing to it being what it is now.

"Alright," Ava says as soon as the two of you walk closer to the balcony, crossing her arms across her chest. "What is it?"

You scoff at her question. "Really?"

Ava clearly doesn't like your demeanor, getting more and more defensive, frowning slightly. "I just don't know what there is to talk about, to be honest."

"There's everything to talk about!" you correct with obvious exasperation. "Do you have any idea how confusing it is to see you act so normal about...about everything?"

"Oh, I'm so sorry. Are you having a hard time?"

There's a brief silence between you. You look back at her with evident conflict, feeling a knot tightening at the pit of your stomach. Ava looks extremely upset– exactly the face you were expecting to see after all these weeks of receiving absolutely nothing from her.

"I just don't understand why you don’t talk to me about how you feel."

Ava avoids looking at you now, eyes glued to her boots as she starts to mindlessly pace around the rooftop. "Because I knew it wouldn't have made a difference," she replies, almost cryptically, a weak smile adorning her lips. "I mean, I wanted to talk to you– truly, I did, but then I realized." She pauses just briefly, almost hesitating to admit what she's thinking about out loud before continuing. "I realized the way you look at him."

The comment has a far bigger effect on you than you would've ever imagined. It's particularly difficult to hear it when Ava looks so...peacefully defeated by it. Like she has come to terms with it.

"As soon as I saw that, I knew I had to stay quiet," she continues, her weak smile never fading. "I can tell Bucky cares about you a lot. You deserve to be with someone like that– someone who doesn't run away when things get too overwhelming. Someone who gives you a lot more than what I can offer."

"Please, don't tell me what I deserve," you say almost immediately. It's a nice sentiment, but you hate to hear it. "I'm the one who should decide that."

"Haven't you already made that choice?"

You get even more upset, letting out a tired sigh at Ava's inability (or perhaps reluctance) to understand just how cruel her silence has been.

"All this time, I thought you didn't care. I just assumed whatever we had was meaningless to you and that it didn't matter if I moved on."

She doesn't say anything at first, simply looking back at you. Smile fading, frown reappearing. Perhaps the gravity of her behavior is just starting to sink in. The idea of her possibly being chosen by you, flaws and everything, until she decided to walk away like many times before.

"How could you–?" she tries, voice breaking slightly at the end, feeling extremely vulnerable at this point. "How could you think that?"

"Because that's what you showed me, Ava! I can't read your mind. You didn't talk to me."

"And why didn't you talk to me?" Ava's voice sounds more desperate now, pointing a finger at you and then to herself to emphasize her words. "I just stood there and watched as you and him got closer and closer, and I had no idea what was going on," she continues, visibly shaken up, finally letting out all of her pent up emotion. "I watched him hugging you. I've heard the two of you laughing together. I’ve had to deal with everyone in the team cracking silly little jokes about the two of you. I noticed you look at him like nothing else in the room exists. And all I could do was watch."

Another silence. Ava is taking a seat on her designated recliner, hands covering her face as she lets out an exasperated sigh, not anticipating she would get this emotional. You stand in the same spot you’ve been the entire time, but as soon as you hear Ava quietly sobbing, you immediately walk up to her.

"I believe we can agree we both have trouble communicating," you start in a soft voice, kneeling to be closer to her height now that she's sitting. "I'm sorry."

Your heart sinks when Ava dares to look at you, revealing her teary eyes. "I'm sorry too," she whispers weakly, feeling incredibly vulnerable right now. She stays completely still as the girl in front of her delicately wipes her tears away. "I really don't want you to think that what we had didn't mean anything to me. It meant everything."

"I know," you reply, trying to comfort her in any way possible. She shouldn't torture herself about it right now.

Before she can stop herself, Ava is reaching for your hand, giving it a light squeeze while offering a sad smile. "I really want you to find the happiness you deserve, you know? Even if it’s not with me by your side."

It's impossible to try to come up with an answer to that right now, too overwhelmed and confused to think. Could you truly be happy if that means never exploring your connection again? It doesn't feel quite right when you try to imagine it.

Before you can say anything, Ava finishes wiping her tears away all by herself. "I'd like to be alone now, if that's okay," she says in a soft voice, showing how distraught she is.

As much as you would like to stay, maybe keep talking about the situation until you reach some sort of conclusion together, you can tell Ava is emotionally exhausted right now. The amount of sharing she has done right now is more than enough, especially considering that it's been very difficult to get her to open up in the past without her completely closing off.

"Okay," you nod, right before standing up from the ground to head back to the main floor.

You’re standing all alone inside the elevator, feeling the knot in your stomach tightening as you try to hold back your tears. You feel completely lost now, knowing whatever you choose won't keep you truly satisfied. You don't want to let go of Ava, but it'll crush you to have to end what you just discovered with Bucky.

Your guilt is eating you alive, and it's getting more and more difficult not to burst out crying. How could you be so selfish? How did you allow this to happen? Ava doesn't deserve it. Bucky doesn't deserve it. And you certainly don't deserve them.

After that emotional encounter, you spent most of the afternoon locked inside your room, away from everyone. You were in dying need of some alone time to think and truly process your feelings. You know you’ll have to make a decision, heart shattering into a million pieces at the idea of losing one of them.

The rest of the group quickly started to notice your sudden absence, starting to get increasingly concerned.

"Is she really not gonna come down?" John asks the entire group as they all gather around the dining table.

"Perhaps she's ill?" Alexei guesses with evident concern, shrugging. "Although I talked to her this morning and she seemed fine."

"Yeah, we were training today and she seemed fine," Yelena chimes in. "A bit out of it, maybe. But overall fine."

Bob briefly points at the untouched box of chinese takeout near him on top of the table. "I can go upstairs and check on her. See if she wants something to eat."

While everyone voices their concern regarding their friend, Ava quietly eats her fried rice as she avoids joining the conversation. From the opposite side of the table, Bucky watches her cautiously, finding her silence a bit strange. She's not exactly the most talkative person in the group, but she’s not this quiet either.

"I can go," Bucky says rather suddenly. As soon as he speaks, Ava looks up at him, only to immediately look back at her food when she notices his analyzing gaze upon her already.

Bob quickly hands him the box containing your food, before closing another extra box for him to take upstairs. "I saved her a few dumplings too," he says with a soft smile, silently hoping that little gesture might make you feel better in case you need it.

Bucky grabs the boxes before heading to the elevator, making his way to your bedroom. He could see a faint light from under the door, indicating you’re probably still awake.

"Hey," he says cautiously, hearing no response. "Is it okay if I come in?"

Nothing. Just silence.

"Everyone's worried about you," he tries again. "Please. I just want to make sure you're okay."

For a second he thought you weren’t going to say or do anything, but he's gladly surprised when you finally opened the door. He takes note of how you look, immediately noticing your puffy red eyes and vacant expression.

"What happened?"

Instead of answering, you just wrap your arms around his torso for a much needed hug. He doesn't know what to do at first, holding a box of chinese takeout in each hand.

"It's been a very shitty day," you simply say after a few seconds of you just hugging in silence, moving back and towards your bed as Bucky walks further inside your room.

"Do you want to talk about it?"

You hesitate at first, shrugging lightly. "You're going to hate me," you reply, still being painfully vague about the entire situation.

"I highly doubt it," Bucky comments with a smile, trying to ease the evident tension that surrounds the entire interaction. Contributing further to it, he hints at the two boxes. "Here's your food. Bob saved you a few dumplings."

You immediately smile at that, appreciating your friend's gesture. It's particularly nice considering last time they ordered chinese, you shared your adoration for dumplings with Bob. It was really just a random comment, but it looks like Bob remembered it.

Bucky takes a seat on your bed, right next to you. "Talk to me."

You have no idea how to even begin to express the complex web of thoughts that have been running through your mind the entire afternoon. How could you even express how you feel without hurting his feelings? How are you supposed to explain you have feelings for Ava and him without sounding like a selfish prick who can't seem to choose between them?

Then, suddenly, Bucky speaks again. "Does it have something to do with Ava?"

You don't reply– not verbally, at least, but Bucky's suspicions are immediately answered by your expression. A mixture of surprise and guilt, not expecting him to bring her into the conversation.

Bucky smiles again, unsure on how to approach this topic. "I've noticed a few things...I wasn't sure, though. But if it helps to ease your mind, I don't...I mean, I don't really mind."

You can't take it anymore, eyes filling with tears as you shake your head. "I feel awful," you mutter. "You don't deserve this. I can't believe I've been so selfish. I'm really sorry for creating all of this mess and dragging you into this."

"You didn't drag me into anything," he quickly replies, wrapping an arm around you in order to comfort you. "And you don't need to feel sorry. You did nothing wrong."

"But I did," you argue, a fake and ironic smile on your face as a few tears start to stream down your cheeks. "I should've been more considerate of yours and Ava's feelings. I should've been more considerate of my own feelings too, instead of ignoring what was going on."

You take a much needed pause, trying to control your breathing as more tears trail down your face, barely able to face Bucky, feeling way too ashamed to do so.

"I really do like you, Bucky. I like you so much, it's actually starting to scare me," you whisper, but Bucky can't exactly focus on your endearing words when you look so broken. "I shouldn't have been so selfish to allow us to develop more than a friendship when my feelings for Ava– as confusing as they might be, are very much there still."

He takes a second to think about your statement, not exactly knowing what to think. "So...you regret what we have?"

"No, of course not!" you quickly reply, moving back to properly look at him. It’s already crushing you, but you know the best decision would be to establish some distance if you want to truly clear your head and figure out your feelings. "I like you and I like what we have...but I can't ignore what I feel for Ava. I think I still have to figure out where she and I stand, and I don't think it's fair to put you through that."

Bucky is once again quiet, which only makes you increasingly more nervous. Silence is the worst answer. You would much rather watch him get upset and say something back at you.

What comes out of his mouth next truly shocks you. "I don't mind that you have feelings for her."

"What?" is all you could muster, beyond confusion.

"I mean, your feelings for her don't immediately invalidate your feelings for me, right?" he says, trying yet again to approach the topic very cautiously. "I don't think you're obligated to choose."

He couldn't possibly be implying...

No. Not a chance. He can't be.

But is he?

"I'm not sure I understand what you mean."

Bucky offers you an awkward smile. "I guess I'm just trying to say that I don’t mind being with you if you want to figure things out with Ava at the same time," he says with a light shrug.

He really is implying it!

You would've never imagined Bucky would say this. Not in a million years. You never even considered it to be a possibility.

The only option you had ever considered was choosing, but you never stopped to think if there was a way that the three of you could make this work. The more you familiarize yourself with the idea, the more it helps to ease your inner discomfort. Perhaps part of the problem with choosing was that, deep down, you really didn't want to choose.

Not choosing makes sense. It feels right. If Ava is open to this idea, this might actually work out.

"Only if you feel comfortable with that," Bucky clarifies shortly after, because you’ve been quiet for way too long. "If it's not, I'll understand we need to take a step back from this."

You snap out of your thoughts, wiping the last few tears away. "No– it’s just…I was just thinking about what you said," you explain your sudden silence. "I actually think I'd like to explore that idea." You can’t help but smile at the mere thought of being able to freely explore your connections with the two of them without being forced to choose.

Bucky smiles back at you, reaching for your hand. "Really?"

"Really," you reply, inching closer until you’re practically on top of him, letting out a soft giggle when Bucky is fully pulling you into his lap. "I'll have to talk to Ava about it, though."

"Sure.".

There's a brief pause, and you’re unable to hold yourself back from inquiring further about this topic. "Where did this even come from?" you ask, wrapping your arms around his neck as you get more comfortable sitting on his lap.

Bucky shrugs. "I don't know. It just makes sense to me, I guess."

You nod, the answer seemingly enough for you. It makes sense to you too now that you have thought about it. Perhaps there’s not really much to explain when the idea simply makes sense.

Without really thinking much about it, he moves your hair to the side, just enough to expose more of his neck to him. He starts caressing the side of your face with his fingers before leaning closer, placing a few tender kisses on the side of your neck, trailing up to your jaw before finally meeting your lips. You return the kiss almost immediately, feeling the familiar butterflies you get whenever he’s around, smiling as soon as you break apart.

Bucky places a quick kiss on your forehead before speaking again. "You should eat."

"Can't I stay here on your lap a little longer?"

It’s the way you say it that has Bucky grinning, shaking his head as you giggle at his reaction. "Don't," is all he says about that, giving you a gentle pat on your upper thigh as a silent way of telling you that you should stand up. Just as you’re about to argue, he pats your thigh again.

You finally do as told, standing up to grab one of the boxes and the chopsticks to begin eating. Bucky gives you another short kiss on top of your head before leaving the room, immediately in the search for Ava.

Downstairs, he could hear the thundering laughter of Alexei even before he reached the dining room. The atmosphere around the table is cheerful. It's been a few months since Valentina’s announcement, and the group starts to feel more and more like a family. But Bucky still struggles to comprehend how he went from living in an empty apartment in D.C., to the Avengers Tower surrounded by people he would've never imagined he would learn to care for so much– and that they would care so much about him too.

"How is she?" Yelena asks as soon as she notices Bucky. The entire table stays quiet as they turn to look at him for updates. "I hope she’s not up there you did something wrong, because I swear I’ll kick your ass if you don’t behave."

He immediately throws both hands up. "I didn’t do anything. Relax."

"So the relationship is going well?" John asks, more as a way to tease his friend rather than to genuinely ask the question.

"Yeah, it’s pretty good."

"You two are a wonderful couple!" Alexei exclaims, genuinely happy that two of his best friends and teammates are together. "You know, I sensed there was something going on between you from day one."

John sighs. "So you have said every chance you get."

"No, but it’s true," Bob intervenes. "You two are very cute together."

Bucky doesn’t really know what to say, feeling a bit uncomfortable for having all the attention on him. "Thanks guys."

Yelena can only roll her eyes at the exchange. "We get it. Romance is awesome or whatever," she adds, not really caring much about it at all, wanting to go back to the original topic. "How is she?"

"She's okay. Just feeling a little exhausted," is all Bucky would share for now. The team seems satisfied with the answer, although Yelena does give him a warning look before they all resume their previous conversation.

Bucky notices Ava is still staring at him, trying to decipher if he knows more about the situation. It's clear to her that he does, as soon as she watches him shortly tilting his head to the side, hinting for her to follow him.

The group barely acknowledges what is going on, too focused on their rant about infamous movies they should definitely watch tonight. Ava stands up from her seat, following Bucky to a small lounge room nearby, away from the rest.

"What happened?" she asks, sounding incredibly defensive like she did earlier with you.

"I think you two should talk."

"Did she tell you anything?"

Bucky gives her a soft smile. "I know enough to understand you two should talk."

Ava finds this extremely confusing, squinting her eyes at him. Why is he deciding to offer his opinion on the matter? Even when she hates to admit it, the gesture is almost upsetting. You’re drifting away from her because of him. Sure, Ava hasn't been the best at handling your previous relationship– you weren't exactly perfect either, but if Bucky wasn't in the picture...perhaps you two could've figured it out by now.

She hates to think of her friend as an obstacle that stands between her and the literal woman of her dreams. It's also very conflicting, because she cares for him enough to also wish him happiness, even if it means she has to let go of you in order for him to achieve it.

"Why are you doing this? Why would you talk to me about it?"

"Because I care about her. And I also care about you. I don't want either of you to be hurting."

"But you must be feeling at least a little conflicted," she insists, not understanding how he could be so incredibly okay about this entire dynamic. "I mean...we both have feelings for her."

"Yeah, I don't really see that as a competition."

Ava frowns almost immediately. "Rude."

Bucky chuckles softly at her reaction. "That's not what I meant."

She appreciates that he’s somehow trying to lighten the mood, deciding to contribute to it. "Good, because clearly I'm a far greater catch than you."

"I wouldn't go that far," he replies, making her smile. "But really, what I meant to say is that I don't think she has to choose between us."

Ava is definitely more confused now. His last statement sounded almost like a cryptic invitation and she wasn't quite sure how to feel about it.

"What is that supposed to mean?" she asks, having the idea very much present in her head, but still needing further confirmation that he really is implying such a thing.

But Bucky doesn't say anything else regarding that, and instead just reminds her, "You should talk to her."

Needless to say, Ava is immediately making her way upstairs to your bedroom for a much needed clarification on what is genuinely going on, glad to see the door half-open.

"Can I come in?" she asks before even peeking inside.

"Sure," you reply from inside. Ava walks inside the bedroom, noticing the empty boxes of the chinese takeout on top of your desk. You were probably starving after being locked up here in your room, immediately feeling even more guilty because your conversation is the reason why you decided to do that in the first place.

You’re laying on your bed, immediately standing up when Ava walks in. The little notebook in which you were previously sketching is quickly placed on your nightstand. "Would you like to sit down?"

You offer her to sit on the bed, but Ava is still feeling a little too cautious, so she chooses to sit on the chair by your desk instead. Pérhaps her fears are unjustified, but she can't shake the bad feeling that things between you might end for good tonight. Perhaps that would explain why Bucky seemed to be so calmed about this situation. Perhaps he knows you'll choose him anyway.

You take note of Ava’s behavior, your mind completely blank now, even after spending minutes rehearsing a speech to properly approach this situation. You don't remember a single word of it.

All you decide to do for now is apologize once again. "I'm so sorry about the way our conversation ended."

"You have nothing to apologize for. I didn’t handle it well either. I think we both need to work on our communication skills."

"Yeah, and I'd really like for us to communicate right now."

A brief pause. You’re trying to figure out if Ava is really up to that, while also trying to control your growing nerves. Ava notices your analyzing eyes on her, nodding. "Alright, then. Let's communicate."

"Okay, so...I had a conversation with Bucky."

There it is. Ava feels as if a bucket of ice cold water has been pulled over her head. She should've known better than to admit something was going on with her. She should've stayed quiet and allowed you and Bucky to build your relationship in peace while she suffered about it in silence. In her head, it's a much better destiny than having to sit in front of you while she hears you say exactly why you prefer Bucky over her– oh, and Bucky...how deeply she's despising him right now...

But she tries to calm herself down as soon as that avalanche of thoughts starts to invade her mind, fully aware that it comes from a place of fear, causing her to feel that sudden urge to run away again. The same urge that cost her losing you in the first place. It’s the worst possible way of dealing with her emotions.

Deep down, she knows she needs to get some sort of closure regarding this relationship. Having the opportunity to hear you and to be heard by you until there's nothing left unsaid. Perhaps that's the only way to truly move on from what you had and maybe (in time) learn to be friends.

And Bucky...how could she possibly begin to despise someone like Bucky? She's grateful to have a friend like him.

"Yes..." is all Ava has to say at the moment.

"And I– I think that conversation changed my entire perspective," you continue. For once, Ava feels more hopeful about the outcome. "I was really conflicted about having to choose because I care so much about both of you. And after talking with Bucky, I realized that maybe I don't necessarily have to choose. And not choosing shouldn't be a bad thing...if the three of us agree it isn't."

Oh, Bucky was really implying what she thought he did earlier.

Is it a bad thing? The idea doesn't sound too bad if Ava truly thinks about it. She wants to figure things out with you, just as much as she wants the two of you to have the chance to continue your relationship. Is it really impossible for two different people to have such a strong connection with the same person? And for that person to feel connected with both? One bond doesn’t necessarily cancel out the other one.

But still, is something new to her that she hasn't really thought about before. She hasn't stopped to think if it'll suit her and her relationships.

"So...what you're basically suggesting is for us to try to work things out, while you continue dating Bucky."

You look almost embarrassed, even when you shouldn't feel like that. It's just part of communicating. If Ava says she doesn't feel up to it, you can talk it out and figure out what works for everybody.

"Yes, that's...I guess that's what I'm trying to say."

"And Bucky has already said that he's okay with that?"

"Yes."

"And you are okay with that?"

"...yes."

"And now you're asking me if I'm okay with that?"

"Ava."

"Alright, I’m sorry! It's just...I never really considered it. I've never been in this kind of situation."

"It's new to me too. It kind of makes sense to me, so I'm open to giving it a try. Maybe it turns out it doesn't work, but right now I feel like it could, and I'd like to explore that with you guys," you add. "Like the kind of risks you have to face in any kind of relationship."

Thinking about it for a moment, that statement it’s very much true. Why should this be any different than the risks and compromises you make in a monogamous relationship? Or even a relationship with a friend or a family member. It’s all about listening to the other person and compromising where you can for them. If the three of you manage to communicate and put your efforts into making it work, who says it won't actually work out?

"I guess we can give it a try," she finally says, choosing to take that risk rather than run away again. She’s willing to take the risk for you and your relationship. "Perhaps it might work."

"It could work," you say, a big smile on your face, unable to stop thinking how incredibly right this feels.

Ava is at a loss of words at first, looking down at the floor with obvious embarrassment. "So this means– like are we–" she tries, hating the way she's practically stuttering like a nervous wreck. "Does this mean we’ll get our second chance?"

"I'd really like that."

Once again, she has no idea what to say, choosing to crack a joke to ease her emotions. "Well, it's probably like the hundredth chance," she comments, standing up from the chair.

You laugh, standing up from your seat as well. "I didn't want to say it, but..."

Ava scoffs, playfully rolling her eyes. "Oh, shut up!"

"Hey, you brought it up!"

The two of you stand right in front of one another, staring into each other’s eyes in complete silence. It’s not necessarily uncomfortable, but it’s evident that there’s some tension growing the more you look at each other. An unspoken thing between you that it’s practically impossible to ignore.

Before she can regret her impulses, Ava takes a step forward to close the space separating you, grabbing your face to bring you in for a much awaited kiss. It’s intense, passionate and incredibly desperate. It’s evident in the way you hold each other. It’s a kiss that you both have been craving for a long time, not sure if you would ever get the chance to satisfy that need.

All you can do after pulling back is to grin back at each other like fools. You let out a soft, nervous giggle before wrapping your arms around Ava’s shoulders. The other woman returns the hug almost immediately, resting her head on your shoulder as she lets out a sigh of contentment. "I missed being like this with you."

"I missed it too," you whisper. "I missed you."

Ava’s heart almost melts at that, feeling like the happiest person in the entire world. "I missed you." It feels so incredibly nice to feel like your dynamic is going back to what it used to be. After parting ways for what she thought was forever, she couldn’t help but feel an invisible barrier between you when you two were forced to reunite again back in that desert– the one that you always felt whenever you started your vicious cycle over and over again. Now, it’s as if that barrier completely disappeared, feeling the familiar comfort only you can bring into her life– for once, neither of you fear that the barrier might come back.

"Can we go to the kitchen? I feel like I need to seriously hydrate myself after crying so much today."

"I'm sorry I made you cry," Ava mutters, still holding tight onto your body. It's adorable how clingy she can be sometimes. You absolutely adore it.

"It wasn't your fault."

Ava lets out a soft sound as a complaint when she feels you trying to break the hug. "Should we go to the elevator exactly like this? I don't want to let go just yet."

"Oh, so you’re feeling extra clingy now, huh?"

She lets go as soon as she hears that you’re making fun of her. "Nevermind."

Unable to contain your laughter, you grab Ava by the arm to prevent her from walking away, pulling her back in for yet another kiss, this one much shorter than the other. "And extra grumpy, apparently."

Ava rolls her eyes again, hating to be mocked and hating that you enjoy it so much, moving once again away from you to start heading outside the bedroom. You grab the empty boxes of take out before both of you walk out into the hallway, briefly chatting about an upcoming mission you have in a few weeks together while you take the elevator to the floor below where all the common areas are.

"Ah, you’re alive!" Alexei shouts excitedly as soon as he sees the pair walking past the living room area. "We thought you wouldn't come out of your room all night."

"Are you feeling better?" Yelena asks now. Apparently, they're all getting ready to watch a movie together. That would explain why everyone is already in their pajamas, a blanket for each of them, and two large bowls of popcorn on top of the coffee table. You smile at her and nod, appreciating her concern.

"We're about to watch The Shining, if you want to join," Bob offers the two of you.

"You don't want to miss Alexei getting scared every two seconds," John jokes.

"Movies look too real!"

"And you're also way too dramatic, dad!"

"I could join you, but I need to get some water first."

"We'll be right back," Ava says this time, both of you continuing your walk to the kitchen.

Inside you meet Bucky, who's apparently waiting for the last package of microwave popcorn to be ready. He greets the two of you, glad to notice you seem to be on good terms now.

"Did you guys have a chance to talk?"

"Yup," Ava replies, leaning back against a counter while you pour yourself a large cup filled with cold water from the fridge. "Your girlfriend is also my girlfriend now, Barnes."

"Girlfriend, huh?" you comment with a smirk, turning to look at both of them. You weren’t sure if Ava would be comfortable using that term, but you’re glad to realize she might be.

"You know what I mean," she replies almost immediately, avoiding making eye contact with either of you.

"I'm glad you were able to talk and resolve things between you."

Ava looks at Bucky now, crossing her arms across her chest with a soft grin on her face. "You know, it still amazes me that out of all three, you were the one to suggest this dynamic."

"Why, because I'm over a hundred years old?"

"Well…yes."

Bucky lets out a quick laugh. "That's like thinking gay people didn't exist before the 2000s," he points out.

Ava doesn't say anything back, simply raising both of her hands up. "I guess you’re right."

Bucky gets the popcorn in a bowl, giving you a quick kiss on the cheek as he walks past you before heading outside the kitchen. You get your cup of water ready before you follow after him, joining the rest of the group.

"Please, try not to scream so much. You might actually give me a heart attack this time," Yelena warns Alexei, just as she’s moving from her seat on the large couch to give the others space to sit down as well. Meanwhile, John and Bob were sitting in a pair of armchairs, one at each side of the couch.

"If you don't want me to get scared, don't pick scary movies."

"This isn't even scary," John points out immediately after. "We'll let you pick one next week."

The remaining three sit down next to Yelena and Alexei. The movie starts, the entire room only illuminated by the large screen before you. You don’t wait before grabbing a bowl of popcorn from the table before you. Before you could eat any though, Ava reaches to grab a handful of them, smiling playfully as she does so. "Thank you," she whispers, filling her mouth with the sweet treat.

As you lay back, Bucky's arm resting on the couch behind you and Ava resting her hand on your thigh underneath the blankets, you couldn't possibly be more sure on your decision. It makes perfect sense. Not choosing makes perfect sense.

They make perfect sense.

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Okay y'all. The big Post-Oathbound Analysis/Thoughts/Critique(?). Spoilers ahead, read at your own risk!

(This was written over the course of two days in four separate sittings, and the entirety of it was written while I was out of ADHD medication. So this is probably going to be very disjointed and incomprehensible. Sorry!)

Of course, it would be criminal to start anywhere other than the center of it all- Bree. While I have some qualms about Bree's arc in Oathbound, they are small and few, and almost exclusively have nothing to do with Bree herself. Following Bloodmarked, it was very necessary for Bree to have the chance to make a clean break from the expectations put on her for her abilities- and to be able to define for herself, with the knowledge of why she has her abilities, what their purpose- and her purpose- will be. I do take some issue with the conceit of Bree losing the identities of the people she cares about, but ultimately it serves extremely well to show that Bree is not the way she is- is not WHO she is- due to their presence, nor their influence, but rather because that is who she is. And I think it's so telling that the first construct she is ever able to use her Root to construct is a shield- especially when she specifically sought out, from the whole line of Vera, a method to use it as a weapon. In order for Bree to be able to use her Root to attack, she must know how to use it to defend- first herself, and then others.

One moment of Bree's arc I particularly loved was when she, Zoe, and Elijah took the time to establish an environment where they could each safely, comfortably, and non-judgementally articulate their respective queerness, with the twins helping and encouraging Bree to put her own queer identity into words for the first time. (A brilliant moment regardless, but also an excellent example of my earlier note about Bree being able to define her own self.) I know from personal experience- on both the Bree side, as the one first articulating their identity, and on the twins' side, as the guiding figure- how meaningful and important that experience is, and I can only imagine how much more significant that experience is for Bree with everyone involved being Black.

And of course, how can I not talk about Bree and Nick, finally being able to reunite properly after Bloodmarked, and finally having the time to figure out their relationship beyond the new, tenuous thing it was at the end of Legendborn? In Bloodmarked, both Nick and Bree were broken down to their lowest, and had to build themselves back up from that- and they had to do that apart from each other. And after both of them worked on themselves, working through their own issues and reaching the point where they were able to stand on their own in confidence, they were able to come together on that shared new ground and figure out what they wanted from each other for themselves. Finally, after two-and-a-half books of others- Alice, Sel, William, Mariah, Valec, Zoe... basically everyone- calling Bree and Nick an item, defining their relationship before they had a chance to truly explore it for themselves... it was gratifying. After how little screentime (Can you use that term when talking about a book?) Nick- and by extension, Nick and Bree's relationship- got throughout Bloodmarked, it was lovely seeing the two together again.

And that, naturally, brings me to Bree and Selwyn. Bree and Sel's friendship began quite late into the events of Legendborn, but from almost the very start of the two learning respect and trust for each other, there was a distinct romantic and sexual tension- from Bree encountering Sel shirtless in one of their first interactions that wasn't explicitly antagonistic, to the iconic "Cariad" scene- and this tension carried forward into Bloodmarked. Due to Nick's absence throughout most of Bloodmarked, his and Bree's relationship becomes a major focus throughout the book, and the two- and their relationship, in turn- undergoes a great deal of development. However, throughout Oathbound, Selwyn is mostly absent, like Nick was in Bloodmarked. As such, there is similarly little relationship progression between him and Bree; I'll refrain from talking about their relationship in Oathbound until the discussion of Selwyn as a whole, as there isn't much development therein, but what is worth noting is that when Bree loses part of her soul, she forgets the tension between herself and Sel, where she doesn't for Nick. Personally, I interpreted this to be a result of her most prominent feeling being her feeling of responsibility for his Demonia, whereas her most prominent feeling for Nick being a result of having to leave him behind, when he was running for her.

Moving on to our secondary characters, we'll start how the book itself does- with William. Now, don't get me wrong- I love William. However. I... really don't know why he was a point-of-view character in this book? Beyond the scene where he tells Lark about the abuse Nick faced as a child, his only purpose as a POV character seems to be to obfuscate Nick, and this scene could easily be delivered through a flashback from Nick's own point-of-view. Alternately, William's point-of-view could have been used more through the latter half of the book- which would also serve as a way to check in with the rest of the Order, such as Greer, who are very absent throughout the majority of Oathbound. Seeing William and Lark's tension develop was quite nice, though.

Mariah, on the other hand, was quite a neat new perspective. While she is a medium like Bree, her own variation of Medium abilities are very interestingly different, and through the vehicle of Mariah's perspective, we get to see more of Valechaz and the Rootcrafter network, the two most interesting aspects of Bloodmarked, in my opinion. It was also lovely to see how utterly Mariah and her aunts were so devoted to helping Bree- she deserves that level of dedication, and it was absolutely heartening to see Bree get the love and respect she deserves, after two books of the Order- and frankly, most others- treating her like shit.

Elijah and Zoelle were absolute delights. The two gave so much context to Erebus. Also, Zoe being a badass trans cambion? Iconic. I loved how she joined in on Bree and Mariah's girltalk so seamlessly, and it was wonderful to see her shame Bree on keeping her boy drama secret.

Speaking of Bree's boy drama... Nick Davis. While he had a whole character arc off-page in Bloodmarked, it was entirely possible to fill in the blanks of what we didn't see with his presence in Oathbound. I am incredibly proud of how he stepped up to force the Order to face the dark truth of how Bree became the Scion of Arthur- especially considering how closely tied he himself is to that abhorrent history. Seeing Nick finally openly face, acknowledge, and denounce the disgusting and horrific nature of the Order was cathartic. His example is one that I hope to follow, no matter how inconvenient and uncomfortable it is.

And finally, one cannot talk about Selwyn Kane in Oathbound without simultaneously talking about Natasia Kane. Finally getting to see Natasia was immensely satisfying, given how much build-up she's had throughout the series, and seeing her wholehearted devotion to Faye- even without the knowledge that Faye was the Scion of Arthur- serves to highlight not only how genuinely wonderful the Matthews women are, but also to showcase how the Kingsmages feel the draw to serve and protect their king, even if they don't know who their king truly is. But that isn't to insinuate that the only thing drawing Natasia and Selwyn to Faye and Bree is their status as the Scion of Arthur- because truly, that's all their own. Bree, like her mother before her, earns that devotion on her own merit, and is not defined by her bloodline. Natasia's love for Faye was so beautifully true that it extended to her husband and daughter, too, and it was a delight to see how utterly willing she was to act in defense of Edwin and Bree. Personally, I wouldn't be surprised if there was a bit more to Natasia's devotion to Faye than mere friendship alone, but even if it is just platonic friendship, the strength of their relationship is one that I can only dream of achieving myself one day.

As for Sel... seeing his Demonia progress was painful to witness. At no point was he not himself throughout the book, it was horrifying to see how his worst characteristics were forced to the forefront above all else. The combination of his own personal dedication to Bree and his Demonia-induced craving for her Root twisted his affection for her into something that just felt sinister, even if he never explicitly took hostile action against Bree. Seeing him treat Nick and Bree as cruelly as he does- especially knowing the history he and Nick have of doing exactly that- was heartrending, but seeing the level of care that they still held for him, even in the wake of this treatment gives me faith for the future. The thing that must be remembered is that Sel willingly chose this for himself, because he decided Bree was worth it. I know for a fact that Nick feels exactly the same, and that shared absolute devotion to her is without a doubt going to help bridge the newly-widened gap between them. And of course, there's Bree herself- Bree, who can do anything she puts her mind to. If she wants to help bring Sel back to himself- and I wholeheartedly believe that she does- she will succeed. Those three care for each other so deeply that I cannot doubt they'll make it through this.

And finally, the reveal of reveals- that Selwyn Kane is the son of the Shadow King. What will this mean? Well... I have some ideas, I think. I have no doubt that this is going to cause some pretty damn sizeable relationship drama, to say the least, but I don't believe for a second that Sel is going to become a major antagonist- or even an antagonist at all, for that matter. Legendborn, as a series, is intrinsically tied to the past- specifically, to the pain within it, how that affects us in our current lives, and how we can and should carry that forward, letting it inform how we go about our lives and guide us onto a better path than we had been on before. This isn't a series with one antagonist, one enemy to overcome- the conflict is systemic, not individual. The efforts against Bree are not the result of actions by any one specific person, but the structural, systemic racism of the Legendborn Order. It is not the regents' plots to lock her away and usurp her, and experiment on her, and use her as a pawn in their games; it is not Vaughn and Tor and their overt racism towards her; it is not the widespread distrust that the Order has for her as an outsider, both an outsider of the Order and as a Black girl; it is all of this, together, compounding on itself. It is the structure as a whole being designed against not just her, but everyone not at the top of the ladder; it is the exploitation of the Scions, and the Legions; it is the Abatement, and throwing the lives of people of all kinds into the meat grinder, not to end the danger that the Shadowborn pose, but to prolong the war and preserve the position of power that the Regents and the highborn of the Order hold; it is the systematic hunting of Rootcrafters, Morgaines, and any users of magic not under the oppression of the Order; it is the meticulous, eugenicist controlling of "bloodline purity" to preserve the inheritance of the Lines, and produce stronger Merlins that will be more reliant on the Oaths, and controlling of every little facet of the Scions' lives up to, during, and after their awakening.

When Bree asked Nick if he would stand with her if she wanted to burn it all to the ground, that was not a hypothetical. At least, that is what I believe. The Legendborn legacy is one of pain and suffering- and that is not just true for their own. The Rootcrafters suffer beneath the totalitarian oppression of the Order; even the Shadowborn themselves are impacted extremely negatively by the war's perpetuation! We have seen, with Valechaz and his brokering of contracts, with Zoe and Elijah and their willingness to aid Bree in saving Rootcrafters they don't even know from being harvested as fuel by Shadowborn, even the Shadow King that they are personal wards of, and more, that even those "On the wrong side" of the war are impacted negatively by the war, how they are harmed by it, and how they are denied the chance to thrive in harmony with the world, by those in power on all sides- by the Legendborn Order, by the Shadow King and his Nightshade court, and by every structure of power in place that perpetuates the cycle. This is the conflict of the series, and this is the obstacle that Bree and her allies work to overcome and defeat. Not any individual or individuals, but the systems that they participate in, perpetuate, and control. And even if this conflict can be fixated down to a few specific individuals, Selwyn Kane is not one of them, even as the son of the Shadow King.

Our main trio, Bree, Sel, and Nick, are three of the most powerful entities in the plot. Bree, the Scion of Arthur and the strongest Rootcrafter currently alive. Sel, the son of the Shadow King and of one of the strongest Merlins in history. Nick, the Scion of Lancelot, raised to be the heir of the entire Legendborn order. And of course, that's not even all of the players on the board- there's Valechaz, a balanced Cambion, son of a Nightshade, and major power player in the demonic world; there's Mariah, who very much seems to have been established as the heiress of the Grand Dame, who can use her medium abilities to restrict the Shadowborn and those in league with them; there's William, the Scion of Gawain, who for two hours every day is the most physically powerful person there is, and who is a master of aether healing; and of course, there is Alice Chen, who in her very brief appearance in Oathbound, is established to be actively defying death by sheer force of will alone, has seemingly developed her own supernatural abilities entirely independent of any established form of inheritance, and whose intelligence and stubbornness allowed her to overcome a mesmer from a master- because I don't believe that it was Bree's power alone that made Alice immune to mesmers. There is Natasia Kane, one of the most powerful Merlins in the history of the Order who was able to overcome being cast out from the Order and denied her Oaths, consigned to progressing in her Demonia beyond the point of any Merlin's recorded survival; and there is an entire new generation of Legendborn Scions and Squires, and past generations of Legendborn Lieges and even Vassals that could turn away from the Order and follow Bree- and I believe that several of them will. All of these people, all at different levels of power and influence, working in concert to overcome the structures set against them and create something new and better in its wake, are all but guaranteed to succeed.

When book four comes around, while I'm afraid for the future of the characters we love- including and especially Sel, for whom I have a very great affinity, and whose fate seems to be the most potentially tragic- I have both enough faith in Tracy Deonn's writing and understanding of the story she has written, and enough faith in the characters within it, to be truly afraid for the future of the series and its characters. I want what is best for these characters who I love, and I have full faith in both them and in Tracy Deonn to bring that about.

TL;DR, while I felt there were flaws in Oathbound, its story, and its structure, I am eager and excited for the future of the series and optimistic that things will end well for those involved, and I will be waiting very impatiently for the next book. I do not believe that Selwyn will become an antagonist, and still hold absolute faith that he, Nick, and Bree will all end up happily in the end, together, as they care far too much about each other to let any of them fall. There is far more in store for Alice Chen than any of us know, and of course, Bree Matthews will accomplish everything she puts her mind to- of that, I am certain, and I cannot wait to see it.

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